May 2009
9 posts
I hate feeling used.
I’m going MIA again maybe even change my number… I’m just so sick of people right now.
So, today I got my surfboard & wetsuit and was supposed to go surfing but ran out of time. I have never been surfing before and I can’t swim for shit so hopefully I don’t drown or get attacked by a shark. My mom used to surf every weekend hardcore so she is totally excited to see me do something she loves.
It’s been almost two months now since I got my last period and...
I can’t believe how good it feels to not have my dad here on vacation
So I’m at the airport right now… Off to San Diego for the next nine days…. Oh poor meeee. LOL jk. Although I really don’t want to go.
Jays got robbed yesterday and he walked in as it was happening…. How scary is that? Jeezzzzzz.
Getting robbed is an awful feeling.
I’m so embarrassed. Today was a test that everyone failed.
Me: look there's a CHP
Jay: I don't care, he can suck my dick.
Me: I thought that was my job.
Jay: You can suck my dick everyday for the rest of my life.
Me: Awe... wait, was that supposed to be sweet?
So, I haven’t updated lately and I am so thankful that I am finally over being sick. Jason is going to be home Saturday and I am so looking forward to seeing him. I learned to be careful what I wish for because I thought I would be happier without him but since he has been gone I haven’t really been all that happy…
Yesterday I finally went shopping for myself and got a few...
April 2009
20 posts
It’s 4:30 in the morning and I can’t sleep. Jasons in Miami and I miss him so much it sucks. :( I can’t wait for Saturday when I finally get to see him. I definitely learned my lesson….
So, just my luck a huge rock flew and cracked my windshield all the way up so now I have to fork over $250.00 for a new one which totally sucks…
PLUS…. I need new tires…. So, thats at least $400 for my car which has to have these ridiculous ass tires.
Plus…. I need new brakes…. Another $150 at least….
PLUSSSSSS… A front-end alignment and new air...
Strepthroat and chronic tonsilitis is awful. :(
busy beee being meee
So, today was an extremely crazy and busy day. I felt like I was running around like a chicken with its head cut off. I slept in until almost ten o’clock and decided that since it was such a gorgeous day outside I wanted to take Bella outside by the pool to layout side with me to get a suntan. I really find it fascinating to see how she reacts to new things; maybe it is because I haven’t had a...
Last night I got out of my hibernation mode and went out once again to have another amazing night. After working I was really tired, but I just felt like getting out of my house again and just doing something. I met Curt and his friend Tito at Bj’s to get a drink and then went to bowl a couple games at Stars and then headed to the bar Tj’s….. Then Mels…. Then the...
yesterday.
Well, considering how upset I have been lately, yesterday was definitely a relief of a lot of built up stress and anxiety. It was for surely a therapy sesh in my book!
Even though we didn’t leave for the lake until extremely late & I was the only person who would actually get in the water to wakeboard, I had an amazing day. I think when you have a passion for something, you...
I try to hard to be a good friend. =(
change.
Well, today I’ve been bored at my friend Buddy’s all day waiting for him to get home from work so we can go to the lake… YAY… I’m totally stoked to have my first wakeboarding sesh of 2009. I know it definitely will be freeezing, but I honestly don’t care because there is nothing in the world I’d rather do than wakeboard….
So, I have been thinking...
Well, last night I definitely drank away the pain. As ridculously crazy as that sounds it really helped me not only just chill out & relax but helped me remind myself that by spending time with other people I don’t need him. Sure a piece of me loves him, but I dont need him.
In life your supposed to separate things by wants and needs in order to make a rational decision. I think I...
imagine.
I decided that a step I needed to take today was do my hair & makeup to make myself feel happy, not depressed.
I found a sick video on youtube on how to tease your hair and I tested it out plus waved it! I <3 it.
Even though Jason & I broke up, dumbo me went to go see him. I tried to see if I could see a positive thing in being in a relationship with him to determine whether I...
reality.
I think sometimes reality is the hardest thing in the world to face and because of this I deleted all my negative posts from the last few weeks because now that reality has hit me dead straight in the face, I realized those feelings I had were caused simply because I allowed another persons actions to determine whether or not I should be happy. As pathetic as that sounds, it is now in the past...
“Good judgment comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment.”
– Fred Brooks