everyone deserves a new beginning.

I hate feeling used.

I’m going MIA again maybe even change my number… I’m just so sick of people right now.

So, today I got my surfboard & wetsuit and was supposed to go surfing but ran out of time. I have never been surfing before and I can’t swim for shit so hopefully I don’t drown or get attacked by a shark. My mom used to surf every weekend hardcore so she is totally excited to see me do something she loves.

It’s been almost two months now since I got my last period and it’s totally driving me nuts. I took like atleast ten tests and they all came back negative. I have a doctors appt when I get home so hopefully I can find out whats going on. It’s just totally freakin me out. I’m not ready to be a parent but if I get pregnant I’m keeping it. My sister is not going to be able to have kids and if anyone knows me well enough they know I have problems in that department too and might not be able to carry a child either. I once bled for a year and a half straight before I told my mom about it and went to see a doctor… Any longer I would have bled to death I was so sick…. I was just super embarrassed and didn’t want anyone to know…..

Well, I’m hoping for the best but most definitely preparing for the worst.

I can’t believe how good it feels to not have my dad here on vacation

So I’m at the airport right now… Off to San Diego for the next nine days…. Oh poor meeee. LOL jk. Although I really don’t want to go.

Jays got robbed yesterday and he walked in as it was happening…. How scary is that? Jeezzzzzz.

Getting robbed is an awful feeling.

I’m so embarrassed. Today was a test that everyone failed.

So, I haven’t updated lately and I am so thankful that I am finally over being sick.  Jason is going to be home Saturday and I am so looking forward to seeing him.  I learned to be careful what I wish for because I thought I would be happier without him but since he has been gone I haven’t really been all that happy…  

Yesterday I finally went shopping for myself and got a few nice things.  It felt like I haven’t been shopping in forever… Quite the therapy sesh… lol.  

This weather lately has been awful… I can’t believe it was so hot for a few days and now it is cold again.  WHAT A TEASE! Ergggg!

Well, tonight I am heading back to Jason’s to clean his house.  I brought so much stuff to his house it looks like I went ahead and moved on in while he was gone. lol.. He’s seriously going to kill me when he gets home, but all that I did for him while he was gone…….. He better be over it quick….  lol

I can’t believe my nipples are COMPLETELY healed after 1 1/2-2 months.  I read online that it takes some people almost a year for them to completely heal.  I guess I just got really really super lucky.